I Was Once An Avid Blogger...

... But now I guess I'm not who I thought I was anymore.

It's been forever since I had a proper update on what I've been up to, and it's not because I have been up to nothing (not Cafe World only ok! wtf), it's because I chose not to share anymore.

Going through my blog, several significant events were left out of the loop, details were spared and it was just like nothing ever happened or changed at all.

Truth is, so many things happened -major ones and not-so-important ones- but I conveniently chose to not share it here, not because I don't want to, but simply because I am not able to express things as freely as I once could. So many things, feelings and people need to be considered when I write that it seemed such a chore for me to blog. Better off not doing it, makes my life a whole lot easier.

Or maybe I'm just complicating things. Can't help but feel a little sorry to see my blog in this state of vacant. Maybe I'll come back when I found myself.

Until then, take care.

Alexander Lee

3 great words for 3 great months.



i love you.



click here.

my phone is cooler than yours

PROOF:



It tells me when a thunderstorm is heading my way, yours got not?

from the closet

READ THIS: I know that I posted previously that I was on hiatus but when blogspiration came I just couldn't resist it! Hahaahahahhahaa note to self: never take my announcements seriously!

I was unpacking my stuff upstairs in my room when certain items caught my eye. Those things evoked so many memories of me and my family in better times. Memories that I chose to shove behind my head and bury it forever was digging its way out of its grave.

above- a Christmas tree ornament, below- a Christmas tree lamp

These two items were bought like 5 years ago from Ikea. It was meant to decorate my new room in the Ipoh house which I never got the chance to live in . I intially wanted to decorate my room with all things Christmas- Christmas tress, reindeers, Santa Claus, snowmen, angels and all the stars in the world! There I was, a naive little girl who wanted to feel like it was Christmas everyday in her room because Christmas always makes her feel like some Christmas magic is gonna happen to her any minute.

Unfortunately, my parents rented out the Ipoh house already so I never did got a chance to fufil my Christmas room fantasy and now I'm stuck with reminders of What Could Have Been. I can't say it's a good feeling, or a bad one but it's just somewhere in between where there are no words to describe what it feels like.

Hello Kitty plushies from 10 years ago.

I remember we used to queue up like mad in McDonald's for these stupid toys and my mom went and encased it like in museum only wtf. My dad even went to work earlier in Singapore so that he could queue up in the McDonald's there to buy them for me. I only collected three of them though, the Japanese wedding, Korean wedding and Chinese wedding lol. I like the Chinese wedding one best and I want it in my bridal chamber when I get married next time!

Fast forward a few years and I was in my teens in Secondary school. I did and said alot of stupid things that I'm not proud of right now, but I had alot of fun during my school times too. I regret now, wishing to grow up and go to college so fast that I let my high school life passed me in a whirl and now it's too late to go back.

class pic 2007, spot me.

High school was when I was most rebellious, said the meanest things and committed the most selfish of acts. I was young, wild and dying for freedom which I never get to taste until now. Sometimes I miss being young and innocent without a care for the world and its worries like how I need to now. I have responsibilities now and I need to bear the consequences of my actions if I'm ever gonna be taken seriously by anyone.

posters of celebrities I worshiped in my closet and bathroom door =.=
I was a teen, for Pete's sake, don't judge!

Throughout my life, I have met so many people and went through so many different things with them. I was grateful that they crossed paths with me but I did not hold against them for leaving me in the end. After so many failed attempts at keeping friendships, I can finally tell who are the people who are worth my time and attention and who aren't. Thanks for those who were with me and who are still with me now. I'll never forget any of you, and by that I mean I'll never forget the bad things you've done to me too. It works both ways ;)

my name in graffiti style from a once a very dear friend of mine.
it was lovely while it lasted, the friendship :)

So many things have changed in just a span of a few years time. I am a different person from who I was when I was in secondary school. Some say I turned bad, into this wild party girl that only wants to have fun and seconds her studies. But maybe that's just because I want to enjoy my life to the fullest when I am still young and have all the time in the world for fun. But I'm still the same person I was, I still go to class and have good grades (cgpa 3.93, eat that suckers.) so I don't see a problem with my partying.

my time capsule 2008 which marks the end of an awesome chapter in my life.
it had been sealed and I have no memory of what I kept inside.
shall open it in 10 years time :)

In short, I love how my life is right now and the people around me. If I could go back in the past, I would change a few things but that's all. There are 2 more months left in the year and I don't want to look back again next year and regret things that I've done and things that I've not done. 2 more months is still enough time for me to change to be a better person, a better daughter, a better sister, a better girlfriend, a better friend and a better student.

One thing that hasn't and never will change about me though, is my penchant for gold-coloured handphone pouches wtf call me obsessed!

=)

crossroads

on hiatus.

For Your Eyes Only

Hello you, here's a special post for a special person like you on a special day that is today wtf.

The date is the 7th, and the time is 0345. Today, we celebrate two months of Us.

2 months = 61 days
61 days = 1464 hours
1464 hours = 87840 minutes
87840 minutes = 5270400 seconds

(Hope my calculations are correct wtf but if not also at least I tried, right? lol)

My life was changed that very Friday morning I said Yes to you and to us. I never thought something like this would would happen to me in this very life at this very moment but magically and miraculously wtf it happened.

I was the girl who would look at a couple in love every time and wished that that girl was me instead. I wished to be held, to be embraced and to be kissed so lovingly in the arms of a person whom I love and trust. I wished there was somebody for me to go to whenever I felt lonely and hurt. I wished the same wishes for so many times and for so long too, but none of them came true. I was so afraid that I am destined to never ever have someone like that for me in this life ever again.

Until the day I met you.

You were, and still are the best thing that happened to me. They say that good things come to those who wait, and I'm glad I did coz something great really did come my way in the form of you. For the past 61 days, I've felt and experienced so many things I've never known of before. I felt more alive in these 61 days than I've ever felt all my life and it's all thanks to your mere existence and presence in my life.

Everyday you make me fall in love with you all over again. Every little action you do makes me wanna love you more and more until I fall so deep I can never see the light again (hyperbola wtf). I never thought that I could love and accept everything about someone unconditionally but that's the way you make me feel every single day for the past 2 months.

Just so you know, it's been 2 months and my heart still skips a beat everytime I see you. And for the record, you make me so happy I sometimes think I would die of happiness wtf.

I love you, Alexander Lee. I hope you love me back too.

Happy 2 months anniversary, babi baby.

Sorry

I'm not sad, I just don't know what's wrong.